First off an earthquake... IT WAS AN EARTHQUAKE. I don't live in California or West Coast for reasons and its not just the high cost of living! 5.9 is not as epic as it could have been but it still is enough to shake everyone up a bit. I was at work and essentially we all thought it was just a large 18 wheeler driving by shaking us. After a while it got worse and didn't my co-workers and I all turned to each other seeing if anyone else was feeling the shaking(or if we were all silently crazy). We weren't. A woman yelled " this happened in West Chester too!" so naturally were thinking oh it just happened in our area! KYW gets turned on and all they can talk about is the buzz that shoot the East Coast! Its such an odd thing to feel the Earthquakes that happen in this area we all had no idea what to do. My initial reaction was to run into the door frame but at that point the quake was over and my head pretty dizzy. I imagine if I did try to run due to my vertigo I would have fallen over as if I had done 20 twirls with my head on a bat. Anyways the damage was very minimal essentially and I hear they are going to make a movie of the great quake....Round 2 started with a phone call and ended with a "leave me alone I do not want to talk to you." Words essentially are more powerful then people really imagine sometimes even if they should put their foot in their mouths... often! I know I'm not the easiest person to get along with sometimes and yes I'm admitting this to... no one (anyways!) but I feel like I honestly don't fight as dirty as other people do. I have to be pushed to a limit before I explode and even if I dislike something that was done if I'm not given the chance to say why I am upset but am assumed to be out of control or told I'm wrong for thinking the way I do or feeling upset by something that maybe I was displeased at well that is a VERY easy way to push towards that limit and quickly. We are all human and do not see eye to eye BUT if you tell me something I have done or said has hurt you I will in no way tell you that you are rediculous or acting out of control or wrong for feeling that way. Ill apologize for hurting you and advise those were not my intentions. I may still think that I am right but I can admit if I'm wrong. Ok lets be realistic sometimes I play my stubborn card but eventually I take it away and apologize. I don't like being talked down to or disrespected(I mean who does!) but if Im already upset and someone tries to add insult to injury by calling me or saying to me " please enlighten me all mighty queen Gina"... Its not a good move to make. Long story short I am hurt and the last words that were spoken AT me was to leave him alone he doesn't want to talk to me. Pretty hurtful from a Best Friend and Love. I figure as most people maybe he needs to calm down but its now Friday with no signs of change. I messaged him before I went to be hoping he would do the same but no luck. I woke up every hour on the hour checking for missed calls and missed messages. Waiting for some sort of acknowledgement of what happened or just about us. 4 Beers in I cant sleep I have a headache, heartache and am still wondering if this person still wants anything to do with me. Now its 9:30 in the morning and I'm still where I was yesterday only now I'm feeling more forgotten. This is unlike this person to do such things and avoid in such major ways my mind is playing tricks on me terribly. OH and do you have a problem where you involuntarily shake or tremor when your upset or stressed? Because I do and it makes it very hard to sleep or do anything essentially when this damn tick wont go away.
Saturday night is my great friends Birthday celebration at her new house that I still haven't seen! I was looking forward to this and making her gifts etc because I usually end up missing her birthday which is weird because I've made it to her husbands birthdays? Anyways this "IRENE".... a hell of a hurricane to boot! Catagory 3 maybe 4... no 2... who knows! A tropical storm situation is going to arise Saturday night and Sunday. Another weekend stuck in the house for me is what I hear and a missed opportunity to see a good friend and have some great times. Mother Nature I get that your pissed about us mocking your Earthquake but come on! I guess I should stock up on flashlights and water containers. Good thing I have half a case of beer left.
Such is my life right now...
xo
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